YOUTUBE

// May 26th, 2010 // Uncategorized

YOUTUBE was my home away from home so to speak, it was and in many way will always be a part of Project KengiKat. It is on YOUTUBE where I shared what I was dealing with as well as sharing the work I created through Do Something Saturday and Unpluggin’ HIV.

I’ve made some pretty awesome friends through this very powerful medium, friends that I know are real and true and friends that I know will remain friends even though my path is now moving me beyond YOUTUBE.

Last month I was forced to transfer all my blogs from the ning network over to my blog on my website because ning decided that it would no longer offer free sites, even though that was how ning came to be what it is today. That was very hard for me to do because there was so much content there and through the creation of that network I was able to meet and create some solid friendships. Friendships that will stand the test of time.

YOUTUBE can be rather time consuming and many times people on YOUTUBE can act as if they own stock in a certain channel which encourages them to make demands on the person who has created the channel. There is also plenty of hate of all kinds on YOUTUBE and it comes in all shapes, forms, colors, sizes, races, churches, pastors, Christians, Catholics, Black, White, gay, straight…….I think you know what I mean.

For me YOUTUBE is becoming a place where I need to monitor hate toward me and what I do, just today I saw several videos made about me that simply are not true, then there are those who go out of their way to talk crap and all kinds of other things, but what bothers me and gets to me the most is all the hatred, racism and judgments for people, places and things. It also bothers me when people refuse to stand up to it, they simply take the mindset “better him then me”

I have enough in my daily life to deal with, my work keeps me very busy and I can deal with all this evil in my everyday life which is more then enough for me or anyone for that matter, I don’t need to come to YOUTUBE to get more if it.

Today I posted my final YOUTUBE video for right now. I am taking a break from it. I dont know how long the break will be and to be honest I dont know if I will post another video. For right now my YOUTUBE broadcasts are on hold. However I will leave the channel in tact because it is part of my work and what is there is very important to me and has been very important to many people as well.

I know people reading this blog will say “Please dont stop your work” and I will not stop my work, I have never stated that I would, but I think some people get the idea that YOUTUBE is 100% of what I do, when in reality it is only about 5% of what I do.

I know people will say “please keep posting I love what you do here” and to this I say, then read my blog, because I have not once stopped posting to my blog and I know my blog will always be the beginning and the end….when the time comes….of my work and what I do.

So today I am turning the page, starting a new chapter and for right now that does not include YOUTUBE. I don’t know when or if I will post another video, but I do know that my work will continue and my purpose in life will move forward.

For those who think I have been run off or I am running away, let me be very clear, I dont run from anyone or anything, I am just moving on and sometimes when we move on, we must leave things behind. For now that is my time on YOUTUBE.

I want to express my many thanks to those who have embraced my message and to all my friends I hope life continues to shine bright and treat you well. Thank you very much for allowing me to be part of your life for over three years. I hope you will find the time to stop by my blog to check in and say hello.

The universe is unfolding and right now it is unfolding without YOUTUBE.

5 Responses to “YOUTUBE”

  1. Leah says:
    May 26, 2010 at 12:13 pm

    I will be checking this every day. I will miss seeing you, but I already told you about that. I love you Big Brother. Keep striving for the best! HUGS by the million for you!

  2. Touche says:
    May 28, 2010 at 1:38 am

    Well I must admit, I had to look around and ask questions to see what the heck was going on! I saw a video and you had a nasty comment but thought it was a personal joke! But when I went the chick’s channel and checked out all the cussin in her “Description” I was like “Hold Up” wait a minute.. is this directed at Kengi.. So I had to come back and see what you were saying in prior videos.. I still couldn’t work it all outI thought it was very extreme.. but once again after you “Goodbye” video I went back to said female page and saw the “Yack Yack” about someone being run off of a network! Wow.. This is all Devil Initiated! I don’t have HIV nor AIDS, but if you can’t cook for me then that means my mother who died from Cancer should not have been cooking for me! My sickle cell cousin should not wash dishes.. Education is the key factor here! But you know, some people don’t want to know, they don’t want to be responsible for knowing the facts because then they can rant and hurt others and say later “I didn’t mean it and I didn’t know” But baby.. God knows.. (not that bull crap about knowing your heart) He knows what your intentions are! He knows where your hurt is directed… and the universe just wont let it go down like that without it being attended to so don’t worry. Hakuna Matah tah! It means not worries for the rest of your days… Hakuna Matah tah… (now do the prance around your room you will feel silly but so much better.. I do it all the time!) There is no better “Slap” then a Jesus Christ slap! its the slap that you can’t understand where did that come from, why isn’t this working for me.. what did I do to deserve this.. and while you’re sitting there in your mess.. the memory of “That Day, That Incident” comes across your mental window… “Conviction!!” you try to tell yourself it couldn’t be..but you know that it is… When you can, pray for them “All” my brother.. Pray for them to “Check Themselves” before they cause a person that is much less stronger than yourself to Hurt their self. I appreciate your “Retreat” know one that is so transparently filled with love, should have to combat spite filled individuals while “Combating Life” it’s self for you and others.. If you feel a video tweek.. lol.. you can always upload on face book! (smile).. Love you, respect you and Learning from you!
    Touche’

  3. Latrese says:
    May 28, 2010 at 11:09 pm

    Kengi, I have much respect for you and what you do. I knew when you decided to take a break from youtube that it didn’t mean you wouldn’t be continuing the great work that you do and have done already. When I came across your channel on youtube I was hooked and couldn’t look away because for once someone on youtube wasn’t making pointless videos. Your videos have changed my life and i’m sure many others. To make this short, I miss you already on youtube and look forward to your blogs. I will now be checking daily for your new blog entries! I’m sure you hear this all the time but, you inspire me to be a better person. Thank You.

  4. LIz says:
    May 29, 2010 at 12:38 pm

    Kengi, I sometimes wonder why people leave comments like the one here on this blog. Really uncalled for and I am sure this is one of the reason you are taking a break. I will miss you on youtube, but I have the awesome pleasure of seeing you when I am in LA and I read your blog all the time. I am sure you have lots of other things that will keep you very busy. Thank you for being the light that you are.

  5. Audrey says:
    June 3, 2010 at 1:28 am

    I miss ur vids but I know how to keep in touch…Youtube does not define our friendship…love you, Kengi

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