Project Kengikat

Homelessness

// July 11th, 2010 // HIV and AIDS, Homeless Outreach

So many times during my 29 months of homelessness I had so many people offer to help me, but their help can with such high pries that I had to pay, so I refused. I was already having to deal with so much crap from the all the agencies I had to deal with. When I was diagnosed HIV positive things only got far worse long before they got any better. My friends had to sit on the sidelines and watch because helping meant the rules of government programs would kick in and they would say “your needs are met Mr. Carr” It’s was like I was being punished for having friends that cared. But, by the grace of God, combined with the love and unconditional support of my friends, the 29 months of homeless is behind me.

It’s been a full year since I moved into my apartment here in Hollywood, I have a great HIV doctor with an amazing support system in place, so the nightmare of HIV is also something that is behind me as well. Dodger my sweet little dog has been such a complete joy to have around. I had the chance to travel back to Washington DC for AIDSWatch, and my outreaches have grown and continue to be support to homeless people and people battling HIV or AIDS. So on all accounts my life is much better then what it was a year ago and I am so happy, thankful and blessed for this.

Even though homelessness is behind me, I still work very hard to serve homeless people and I must say that I still get very angry, pissed off and bothered when I run across people who go out of they way to exploit homeless people. It bothers me even more when I see the people who are doing it claim to be doing “what thus say the Lord”

Last month I saw someone on YOUTUBE making videos about a homeless couple where near where they live. While watching the videos I had to ask myself  why this person was doing this. They clearly had many other issues that they needed to deal with and I knew that this person has no idea of how to help a homeless person. With her camera in hand she showed the license plate of the homeless couple and even disclosed where they were sleeping. Things that can pose clear danger for people who are homeless.  She even covered the seats in her car while the homeless woman was in her car. Her entire set of videos showed her lack of common sense , compassion or even the smallest amount of care or concern for the people she started to call her “friends”

Just like I knew would happen she quickly dropped her mission to help homeless people saying in a comment on one of her videos “you can lead a horse to water but you cant make them drink” When I saw this comment from her I have to say the last ounce of respect I had for her was gone. This woman claims that she was once homeless, but she makes statements that clear show she was never homeless and had no intention of helping this homeless couple, she only wanted to try to take the attention off the mess she created.

The way she simply used these homeless people they was she did was disgusting and down right mean. Then to simply walk away and say something like “you can lead a horse to water……” was nothing but a bunch of bullshit. First of all she has no business leading anyone any place. Then for her to say she did it to bring attention to the homeless issues is just sick.

Homeless people have plenty of crap they must deal with and shot they must endure for a system that is beyond repair. They should not have to deal with people like this woman and her sick mind leading them wrong  and making things far worse then what they already are.

Many people ask me what I do what I do and why I care so much for homeless people and I must say that it is because I was homeless and had to deal with all the harnesses and even crap like this couple had to endure from this woman. I do it because I care and I know people are in need of support.

This woman used this people and what she did was wrong and I dont care how many comment of her videos and tell her what a great lady she is or how much God will bless her for doing what she has done, I know and so do many other people the real reason why she went out of her way to exploit homeless people and it had nothing to do with caring for them and wanting to raise awareness for the horrible homeless issue in this nation.

But I guess when you can quote bible verses, make videos where you claim to be a true child of God, when you shout up and down about how God will “get” other people, I guess this excuses you for being human. This some how gives you the green light to look down on people and act all high and mighty.

Well guess what, the same wrath that you talk about is going to happen to other people, please tell me what will happen to you? Does God not see all that you do? Does he not see the hate that LIVES inside of you? People like you are going to bust hell wide open.