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Unconditionally

// January 4th, 2010 // Uncategorized

It’s the 3rd day of the new year and so far I have been doing nothing other then spending time with friends and I must say it has been awesome. It seems like I spent so much time last year making time for others and really didnt make much time for my friends.

New Year’s Eve I spent with my two best friends Andy and Tina ringing in the new year in Downtown Los Angeles at the Nexus New Year’s Party. Wow, was this fun. Tina and I danced a great deal and all three of us laughed and enjoyed each others company. It was a great way to end what was a pretty blessed year for me and to think it also started with the same two people. PRICELESS!!!

New Year’s day was spent in bed sleeping most of the day. I got home a little before 6AM with Andy and Tina, they crashed on my bed and me on the couch. This year wasnt like last year where I was excited that USC was once again playing in the Rose Bowl. In fact last year Andy, Tina and I went to the Rose Parade after a awesome night at Ms. Kitty’s, but this year was very different. We did not watch the Rose Parade this year and well, USC was no where near Pasadena.

Saturday was another day filled with fun with my friends and once again I spent the day with them and loving the company of friends and the awesome life that God has so richly blessed me with. The sunset in Santa Monica are always so beautiful and I had the chance to take in the awesome sunset with Tina. It was so awesome to spend time with her, it is something we hardly get time to do. The sky was awesome and the clouds looked as if God had been blowing on them to create this awesome pink and grey colors against the sunset. There were also plenty of sailboats in the water headed back to the marina. Tina and I watched the sunset and talked before we met up with Andy.

After meeting up with Andy, we walked on 2nd street to end up at Bruno’s Pizza, this place has been on Ocean Avenue in Santa Monica for 23 years and I have never eaten there until last night. WOW, was it worth the wait. The pizza was awesome and the owner was both charming and very kind to us. It was an evening of good food and great friends. We even joked as we walked by the apartments right by the water where I have been approved for housing. We joked about how cool it would be to have them come over and wash their clothes in my place where I would have my own washer and drier.

As we joked about this I smiled to myself because I was with two people who I know really care about me and love me a great deal. Two people who have went the extra mile and then some for me. Two people who I am so thankful for and to each and everyday. You can never fully understand the amazing relationship that I share with these two and I dont think they will ever understand just how much I am so eternally grateful to them for being in my life.

When I was ending 2009 I was considering and thinking who and what would transition with me into 2010 and some things and people I knew I just could not leave behind and Andy and Tina along with their friendship were two of them, so to be able to celebrate the start to another new year with two people who are simply priceless to me was awesome. To spend an evening with them just chilling and enjoying each other is awesome.

Tina and Andy are far more then just my two best friends, they’ve become my family, my support, my shelter in the time of storm, my food when I was hungry and friends when others walked away. They believe in me and refuse to let me give up. Even when I tried to kill myself last year, Tina and Andy stood with me and helped me get through that very hard time in my life, as they have with so many other hard things in my life. When I think of all the goodness and blessings in my life, I cant help but see these two wonderful people right there and I cant imagine my life without them. Now that they are in my life I simply cant let them go.

Life is filled with ups and downs, good times and bad, high roads and low roads, but the one constant in all of this is our life. We can either allow what life throws at us to destroy us or we can use for what it was intended and that is to make us stronger, make us better people, make us more kind, more gentle, more loving, more open to love, more open to HUANITY and all it has to offer.

I still have a long road in front of me and I know it wont be an easy one, no one ever said life was going to be easy, but one thing I am sure of is that my friends Tina and Andy are true friends and will always be part of my life no matter where we are on this planet, they will always be my dear friends, my sister and my brother, two awesome people who have showed me what it is like to have people in my life who truly love without conditions.

In this coming year I am only going to surround myself with people who truly love me and I am happy that the circle has been started to two awesome people like Tina and Andy.

Unconditionally